a little surreal

okay, so the new nanny is coming to town this weekend to get interviewed. Im excited for her, the bentfords and all that. but, it's weird. it's like okay, its been building up to all this and now its here. i talked to dwan tonight and she understood. i may not be making any sense. i am not jealous. just weird feeling. kinda happy kinda sad.

so, yeah. thought id say that.